So lately I haven't been feeling a hundred percent. A lot of things were contributing to this... heat, dehydration, bad work conditions, increased responsibility and therefore pressure at work, stresses in my personal life, not knowing what to do next or which direction to head in. For the past few days my kidneys had really begun to hurt and after doing some research and also talking to a couple of people I realised the damage could be irreparable. So, in an effort to salvage them, I started drinking more water, I try to do 2-3 km of interval training 4 times a week at minimum to stay fit and work on my stamina and general feeling of well-being but the problems persisted.
Lately I'd been fatigued, not sleeping well, nauseous, had a lack of appetite, headaches, dizzy, body and joint pains - honestly it sounded like I'd aged fifty years! My friend's a doctor - got a list of tests to get done, cbc, tsh, etc. but everything was, thankfully, normal. So what's the problem I asked? Her response... "probably just stress".
I blog to vent. And perhaps I need to do more of it. I feel like other people don't always understand how I feel, and sometimes they are either sick of listening to me whine and complain or they just don't have the time. And I can't blame them. I also get sick of folks who keep crying over spilt milk that has dried up and become a stinky curdled mess! "Cry a river, build a bridge, and get over it!" Unless you have a blog and want to whine into this blackhole of an abyss. And honestly, who really cares about other peoples problems? Don't we all have a bunch of our own to worry about? Those who want to entertain themselves with random ramblings of a sometimes drama queen who over analyses things, can be super sensitive and is almost always right are warned... the doc says I need to de-stress. You are the people that are going to get a lot of juicy blogposts in the near future! Don't worry - I keep the real boring stuff tucked safely away in a journal - but I'm quite the storyteller - so I'll take the good bits and mince them into something worth reading! Good for you - fun stuff to waste time on, good for me - out of my system!
Since I promised myself not to get too personal here you might not even be able to tell when and where I'm doing it - the venting! Woohoo! Oh and also - I'll be writing some fictional stories inspired by some of my friends. They've had some interesting life experiences but since I don't want to expose them and their colourful natures - we'll just let it be "fiction inspired by somewhat true events, slightly exaggerated and given a better ending!"
